Friday, February 27, 2009

Hulu and Faith

Okay - I'll admit it. I am hooked. I am hooked completely on Hulu.com. If you have yet to visit the website (and that would be a handful of people from what I understand), I highly recommend you do so. The site is a pure treasure trove of old television shows. Over the past few weeks I have relaxed by watching LAND OF THE GIANTS, TIME TUNNEL, FALL GUY, BABYLON 5, and REMINGTON STEELE. Some of the best shows ever are on this site. Why, I've even watched episodes of HE-MAN AND THE MASTERS OF THE UNIVERSE (decent messages, great theme music).

Maybe my love for Hulu.com comes because I simply like TV. I think it goes deeper than that. I like the old time shows for the fun they were, for the messages they gave. But then, I have always been in love with the old time messages. To be more precise - I've always loved the old time message.

What old time message? You know - the one that has been around since the creation? The one that states "God loves you."? The one that states that "God so loved the world that He gave His only Son. That whoever believes in Him will not die, but have everlasting life." Yeah, I've been hooked on that message since I was 22 years old. The funny, and great, thing about this "Old time message" is the more I hear it, the more I study what it means - the younger I feel. The more I read the words around the Son that was sent, the better, the more alive I feel.

There are times I simply watch shows on Hulu because they help me to unwind after a long day. The "Old Time message" helps me to unwind too, while renewing my spirit for the day that ahead. Only the true, living God could use a computer website to remind me how deeply I need His words each day. That is a living message, and one worth following everyday.

Respectfully submitted,

Mr. Keb

Saturday, February 14, 2009

A Good Day - Feb 14, 2009

Ahh, Valentine's Day! A great day to remember the wonders of being in love. This year, I had the chance to celebrate being in love with 3 of my favorite aspects of life - being married, being from the state of Arizona, and my favorite sport. Let's take them in that order.

1) Being Married: I always thought that if I was married to the right woman, life would be so much better. Well, I was right. That does not mean it has been easier. An easy life is for wimps anyway. No - being married has taken my life to higher levels than I thought possible. It has changed me in ways I did not realize I needed to be changed in. I'm fortunate and blessed. The woman I married - Sara - is a gifted, beautiful, and intelligent woman. That she married me and stays married to me proves the miracle I am blessed with in her. We were looking as houses today. While doing so, I realized again how much I look forward to growing more mature with her over the next few years. After nearly 18 years of marriage, we have much growing yet to do. The joy is - we get to do it together.

2) Being from Arizona: In the year 1912, Arizona became the 48th state of the United States. The alluring aspects of Arizona are to numerous to name in this post. The deserts, the snow covered mountains in the north, the unique culture along the border - the state is filled with wonder. While I enjoy living in Texas now, I know that who and what I am has been shaped in positive ways by growing up in Arizona. I spent a lot of my early years in New Jersey, but it was in Arizona where I learned who I was, what I could do and be, and learned I could reach for whatever star I could see in the vast open sky I saw above me each night. A great state to be in, a great state to live in, a great state to have called home. A part of my heart will always be there.

3) My Favorite Sport: In places throughout Arizona and Florida, catchers and pitchers officially reported for the beginning of Spring Training. It is time for Baseball - the best sport in the world IMHO. There is some much to love about the sport. I should write more about it in this blog sometime. Suffice to say I could sit and watch the game everyday. I love the sport so much that one of my great blessings in life is to work as a Customer Service Representative for the Texas Rangers. At almost every home game (and some non-home game days), I can be found in my uniform helping fans as they come into The Rangers Ballpark in Arlington. There are grand times to be had at each game. I look forward to each chance to be out there. I work with caring people who help me grow in many aspects of life that go beyond the work I do at the games. What a thrill it is to be at my favorite ballpark, working for my favorite team and watching the best sport in the world. An added blessing is when my wife is able to come to the games.

I hope everyone has a great Valentines Day. Most important of all: Remember that God loves you, and always will. That is the best kind of love out there.

Respectfully submitted,

Mr. Keb

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Frustrating Dreams

Now that the Super Bowl is over, I can officially say I feel just like the Cardinals do. To come so close, to think you have it won, only to lose it in the end.

I wanted the Cardinals to win, though I am not totally unhappy to see the Steelers take it either. Still, it would have been a great story to see a franchise with a perpetual losing history take the whole thing.

I did not watch the game. I was working on things I needed for my job - which leads me to what I am writing now. As I write this, I am doing a job I really do not like all that much. I am a Reading, Writing, and Social Studies teacher. I love the teaching aspect. It is a blast being able to touch the lives of my students; to show them they can be better than what they are. Yet, my heart is not fully into it as I am teaching in areas that are ok, but are not my passion.

When I received my Teacher Certification in Speech Communication in December, 2007 - I really thought the world would be open to me. I spent all summer looking for a place that would let me teach in my field. There was some interest, but nothing really firm. A Christian school put an offer on the table, took it off, then put it on again. I had to say "No" to it because I could not feed my family on what they offered me. So, I ended up taking a position with a school that pays me as a sub, but works me as a full time teacher. It is valuable experience to be sure. Still, it is more than I had bargained for.

I have been dragging my feet to add the certification in Reading and Writing because the more I teach those subjects, the more I miss teaching Speech and Communications. I always believed that when God gave you a passion for something, He would open the door for you to live out that passion. I am discovering that is not always true.

I admit, some of my current situation is my own fault. If I had pushed harder to take the exams needed for additional certifications. If I had studied a different subject area in school. If....if....if.... Those "ifs" only add to the frustration, the pain I now feel and have been feeling for a few months now. Why can't I teach what I love to teach? Why can't I find a job that will let me use the skills and knowledge in the field of communication? What am I doing wrong now?

There are days I just want to cry - this being one of them. Just like the Cardinals - I can see the dream being lived by others, but I can't seem to taste that dream myself. It hurts. I feel sad, I feel angry, and I feel trapped.

It is not a good place to be.

Mr. Keb